[whizco]

A friend of mine shot and killed himself this morning, and i can't help thinking that I might of helped him make the decision in his depressed state. He recently quit a good paying job to become a correctional officer for the Sherrif's dept. And after 2 days on the job decided it wasn't for him. He tried to get his old job back, but it had already been filled.

We were at our kids baseball practice yesterday afternoon just talking, when I decided to tell him about the deal I just lost out, on the 94 GT Convertible I had posted about here earlier in the week. It didn't even dawn on me that by me talking about spending 10k, when he can't even find a job might possibly lead to something like this. God I hope not! Can't help to think that maybe if our conversation had of been different, maybe he still would be here. I had to pick up their daughter from school today, and bring her over to my home, and just looking at her, keeps me thinking she might of had a father still if I had of kept my big mouth shut.

Sorry for posting this here, Bob if you want to remove it, it's o.k. Just had to let it out to other friends I have here.

Doug

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[whizco]

Thanks all for the kind words. I just got back from taking there daughter back home. My wife and I were going to keep her as long as needed, but her mother had decided it was time to break the news to her with all of the family and friends there. They only live 3 blocks from us, but as I loaded the kids up into the van, I couldn't help thinking how Amanda was happy she was going home to see both her parents. That 3 blocks felt like 3 miles as I drove her home. She is only 6 and hopefully won't remember much later in life, and there son is only 10 months old.

What was harder is explaining to my daughter who is 8 next month of what was happing at Amanda's house. She knew right off when we got there that something was wrong. She knew Todd as well and really liked him.

FYI, Todd was a very gentle hearted man, that was one of the reasons he decided to quit the Sherrifs Dept. He told me right after he quit that he couldn't handle the idea of walking down the hall and find inmates who committed suicide in their cells, as he did on his very first day of work.

Thank you, everyone! This has helped me cope with it a lot, just being able to read your post and listen to your support.

Doug

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